Pausing in the wholeness


It has been quite a while since I had the luxury to sit in front of my laptop, opening the blogger page and tapping the keys to see my thoughts unfold into words. And it is such a gratifying feeling to be able to do this - without any agenda, without any expectations of what will flow out or whether it will be interesting or boring or relevant or irrelevant. Just the simple act of being able to articulating the thoughts is a reward unto itself.

The recent events in my life has made me understand the magic that each moment holds. Whatever maybe the external situation, no matter the grief, frustration, anger etc etc, if I pause for a moment, there is pure magic waiting in that moment. 

The beauty of this life is its uncertainty. Anything can happen to anyone at anytime. Yet, here we are, planning and securing our future. No doubt it is essential, but in all the doing, to loose sight of just being is the biggest tragedy! 

It is so profound to experience every moment in its entirety. being fully aware of this one moment through all our 5 senses, watching all the thoughts and emotions raising within and connecting with the witness within us that is unmoved by the constant movement that is the very essence of life.

Not distracting ourselves with chores or busy-ness or devices, not pushing aside uncomfortable thoughts, feelings, situations and sensations, not judging or cringing at what comes to our awareness within and without, looking at it all and embracing it all with love and kindness is perhaps the very purpose of this lived experience. 

Having taken this name and form, we are here in this life, to experience it as a whole. Not fractured and fragmented pieces that fit our narrative or our expectations or our beliefs...but as it is - raw and pure - unadulterated by our filters of likes an dislikes and wants.

While these moments are still fleeting and last but for a precious few seconds or minutes, it leaves its impact for us to savour through the rest of the doingness that we go through. But slowly slowly, the complete joy of being in the here and now takes over, gently drawing us back into the essence of our very being - that of eternal peace and happiness. Tat Sat.

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